I loved this. Honestly, this line says it all: But I was always scared. We don’t live that way anymore. And give yourself a break! 2 years is a huge accomplishment and still you are relatively young in sobriety. And 6 kids? Just kill me and God bless you. Illness is the worst—so very out of control. And that awesome husband of yours gets it. He knows you so well and lets it all go when you’re less than perfect. I really enjoyed your writing. May God bless your home with better health very soon!
First of all, I hope your everyone in your family is past all of the sickness. My 2 favorite takeaways are 1. asking the universe to show me the next right thing (love this!!!) and 2. not having the shadow chasing me. Yes!!! I, too, have 2+ years of sobriety under my belt, but nights like last night are difficult. My 2 sons are 21 and were at the casino with my husband. I was alone in the house all night, on a Friday. Of course I wasn't completely alone... I have my 2 amazing dogs... but all the humans were gone. Sometimes I love being alone, but I think last night I felt jealousy, and I felt like an outsider. I know they were all having drinks together and bonding. Yes, it's my choice not to go to the casino, and I bond with them in other ways. I know this, yet it still bothers me that I'm not "a part of." I went to bed early and ate almost a whole bag of cheddar popcorn. I'm thankful I woke up sober today.
Thank you for saying all this! It really makes me happy you took those things from this. We are dealing with an ear infection with the 5-year-old but hopefully that is the last of it 😂
Stuff like that just doesn’t have the draw it once did for me….I get it. Maybe one day it will be fun - Laura McKowen of “Love Story” just wrote a piece (I don’t think it’s paywalled) about starting to go out again and having fun with it, sober.
But most importantly : you put your sobriety first! Nothing better than waking up sober, that’s for sure.
And lastly: I lovvvvvve cheddar popcorn 🤤 good choice.
I feel like the thing no one tells you when you stop numbing is that you have to start feeling - and that sometimes feels worse and harder before it feels better. Always worth it, as you say, but not always easy x
I have to have that embroidery! Where did you get it?
I wish I could take credit!! I just saw it on social media and used it as this image - I so wish I had a pattern for it!!
I loved this. Honestly, this line says it all: But I was always scared. We don’t live that way anymore. And give yourself a break! 2 years is a huge accomplishment and still you are relatively young in sobriety. And 6 kids? Just kill me and God bless you. Illness is the worst—so very out of control. And that awesome husband of yours gets it. He knows you so well and lets it all go when you’re less than perfect. I really enjoyed your writing. May God bless your home with better health very soon!
Thank you so much for this ❤️ I don’t know how I missed it until now. And to clarify, the complete total is 8 kids 🙈😂
First of all, I hope your everyone in your family is past all of the sickness. My 2 favorite takeaways are 1. asking the universe to show me the next right thing (love this!!!) and 2. not having the shadow chasing me. Yes!!! I, too, have 2+ years of sobriety under my belt, but nights like last night are difficult. My 2 sons are 21 and were at the casino with my husband. I was alone in the house all night, on a Friday. Of course I wasn't completely alone... I have my 2 amazing dogs... but all the humans were gone. Sometimes I love being alone, but I think last night I felt jealousy, and I felt like an outsider. I know they were all having drinks together and bonding. Yes, it's my choice not to go to the casino, and I bond with them in other ways. I know this, yet it still bothers me that I'm not "a part of." I went to bed early and ate almost a whole bag of cheddar popcorn. I'm thankful I woke up sober today.
Thank you for saying all this! It really makes me happy you took those things from this. We are dealing with an ear infection with the 5-year-old but hopefully that is the last of it 😂
Stuff like that just doesn’t have the draw it once did for me….I get it. Maybe one day it will be fun - Laura McKowen of “Love Story” just wrote a piece (I don’t think it’s paywalled) about starting to go out again and having fun with it, sober.
But most importantly : you put your sobriety first! Nothing better than waking up sober, that’s for sure.
And lastly: I lovvvvvve cheddar popcorn 🤤 good choice.
“Common f-ing cold” is hilarious. As pre-usual, Kristen’s humor is top tier.
O Kristen. “But at least I don’t feel like I have a shadow chasing me…” Isn’t that the truth. Your deep down gratitude is so apparent and inspiring.
I feel like the thing no one tells you when you stop numbing is that you have to start feeling - and that sometimes feels worse and harder before it feels better. Always worth it, as you say, but not always easy x
And how much harder it becomes to just ignore/accept other people’s bullshit 😂
That’s a whole separate skill!