I love the spreadsheet data revealing the dress purchases! I once thought my co-workers were walking off with my pens. So I put my name on little pieces of paper and taped them on to my pens. It was me; I was leaving my pens everywhere! That was my sober thinking then. I think I am less quick to blame others now. Maybe.
I really enjoyed that read. Thank you for sharing. I feel it shows the part of us that is quite obsessive. The justifications we almost always made, that we were OK in our drinking and progress. All of that obsessing and justifying amounts to alot of energy, energy that I now find is my peace of mind. Isn't it a blessing to arrive at the freedom from the bondage of self!
I dont count now. I am aware when its a year (passed 4 years this month), and certain dates I remember when I was especially shook to my core, in active drinking. But I've let go of counting because its a life I won't return to.. if that makes sense. I have evolved. I believe this to be a dangerous place (I am told) so I dont take my foot off the gas of my own growth program (12 steps to freedom), service and unity, I keep in the triangle 💕🔼💫💖🫂🦋📚🥰🌄🎶💃 free from thoes chains ⛓️ BTW I had put ALL mind altering substances (AND BEHAVIOURS THAT LED ME TO USE) down, I was a drinker, pain med taker, weed smoking, cocain snorting, pill popping, mdma dabbing, gas sniffing, tobacco rolling, sex obsessing, relationship controlling addict... I swap one thing for another to get high 👌 Know thyself they say... Honesty is step 1... oosh then Letting Go is EMPOWERING. Big loves to all on your wellness journeys 💪💖🎶🫂🦋✊️💃💫👩🎓📚🌟
This reading was spot on for me! First of all, we have similar days sober... I'm at 947 days today. And I absolutely love the I Am Sober app! Like you, I DO NOT want to mess up my day count. In fact, I'm pretty sure that challenge has kept me sober on a few occasions. One of the silly apps I tried when I thought I could moderate was Sunnyside. I have nothing against it, and it may work for some, but it doesn't work for drinkers like me. The only thing that works for me is total abstinence. Thanks for the reminder of the old saying... The person with the most sobriety is the person who woke up earliest this morning. I love that! Looking forward to reading Part 2. Thank you for sharing your stories:)
Thank you so much! Yes - those moderation apps are such a catch 22. I think they probably don’t work for most…..but they are huge profit machines to keep the dream of moderation alive for people who probably won’t achieve it 😭 like you say, very good for people who it works for, but I think they might be fewer than even they think…..self identifying is so much more challenging since there’s not a simple test to say, I can’t moderate. And so fun that our day counts are so close!!
And — I’m so, so, so grateful that I don’t wrestle with that question anymore.
Thank you for your comment and part 2 coming soon 🥰🫶
I love the spreadsheet data revealing the dress purchases! I once thought my co-workers were walking off with my pens. So I put my name on little pieces of paper and taped them on to my pens. It was me; I was leaving my pens everywhere! That was my sober thinking then. I think I am less quick to blame others now. Maybe.
I love that pen story 😂 thank you! 😊
Your story helped me remember it.☺️
I really enjoyed that read. Thank you for sharing. I feel it shows the part of us that is quite obsessive. The justifications we almost always made, that we were OK in our drinking and progress. All of that obsessing and justifying amounts to alot of energy, energy that I now find is my peace of mind. Isn't it a blessing to arrive at the freedom from the bondage of self!
I dont count now. I am aware when its a year (passed 4 years this month), and certain dates I remember when I was especially shook to my core, in active drinking. But I've let go of counting because its a life I won't return to.. if that makes sense. I have evolved. I believe this to be a dangerous place (I am told) so I dont take my foot off the gas of my own growth program (12 steps to freedom), service and unity, I keep in the triangle 💕🔼💫💖🫂🦋📚🥰🌄🎶💃 free from thoes chains ⛓️ BTW I had put ALL mind altering substances (AND BEHAVIOURS THAT LED ME TO USE) down, I was a drinker, pain med taker, weed smoking, cocain snorting, pill popping, mdma dabbing, gas sniffing, tobacco rolling, sex obsessing, relationship controlling addict... I swap one thing for another to get high 👌 Know thyself they say... Honesty is step 1... oosh then Letting Go is EMPOWERING. Big loves to all on your wellness journeys 💪💖🎶🫂🦋✊️💃💫👩🎓📚🌟
“I have evolved” - I love that!! Thank you for this sweet comment and your support, and so many congratulations on 4 years!! 🙌🏻
This reading was spot on for me! First of all, we have similar days sober... I'm at 947 days today. And I absolutely love the I Am Sober app! Like you, I DO NOT want to mess up my day count. In fact, I'm pretty sure that challenge has kept me sober on a few occasions. One of the silly apps I tried when I thought I could moderate was Sunnyside. I have nothing against it, and it may work for some, but it doesn't work for drinkers like me. The only thing that works for me is total abstinence. Thanks for the reminder of the old saying... The person with the most sobriety is the person who woke up earliest this morning. I love that! Looking forward to reading Part 2. Thank you for sharing your stories:)
Thank you so much! Yes - those moderation apps are such a catch 22. I think they probably don’t work for most…..but they are huge profit machines to keep the dream of moderation alive for people who probably won’t achieve it 😭 like you say, very good for people who it works for, but I think they might be fewer than even they think…..self identifying is so much more challenging since there’s not a simple test to say, I can’t moderate. And so fun that our day counts are so close!!
And — I’m so, so, so grateful that I don’t wrestle with that question anymore.
Thank you for your comment and part 2 coming soon 🥰🫶