I love your honesty and humanness! I'm also in recovery, and thank HP I always will be!
What helps me, is remembering that anger is an ego's reaction to hurt or fear. Anger feels so much more powerful! (Ego powerful, not Divine Powerful). I feel the hurt and fear fully, and then invite HP into it. Steps 6&7 are always "Remove this fear and replace it with faith" for me.
Then, I practice putting down the so-heavy backpack of resentment, and walking on unencumbered, autonomous, and free. I have to remember that this is not saying that what that person did was right; it is more like kicking out the offender from living rent free in my head, draining my power.
This has taken years of practice on my part; healing is rarely instantaneous. And how I loved immediate gratification in my active addiction!
At 20 years, I still go to several meetings a week, because this disease wants me to forget all this, and resume putting all my grievances in the backpack again!
The minute I am disturbed, I am in the habit of taking a big breath and saying I'm powerless. Not only over substances and behaviors, but over people, places, things and situations.
I am not the Buddha yet, but most days I can "Wear the World Like a Loose Garment". Quote from the 24 hour a day book. You are surrounded by Love, and have everything you need to do this thing! It's a wonderful life. nora ann.
Excellent
Thank you! 🙏🏻
I pray that I never get what I deserve. (Also I love your writing style!)
Thank you so much!!! Maybe I am getting what I deserve 🤣
I love your honesty and humanness! I'm also in recovery, and thank HP I always will be!
What helps me, is remembering that anger is an ego's reaction to hurt or fear. Anger feels so much more powerful! (Ego powerful, not Divine Powerful). I feel the hurt and fear fully, and then invite HP into it. Steps 6&7 are always "Remove this fear and replace it with faith" for me.
Then, I practice putting down the so-heavy backpack of resentment, and walking on unencumbered, autonomous, and free. I have to remember that this is not saying that what that person did was right; it is more like kicking out the offender from living rent free in my head, draining my power.
This has taken years of practice on my part; healing is rarely instantaneous. And how I loved immediate gratification in my active addiction!
At 20 years, I still go to several meetings a week, because this disease wants me to forget all this, and resume putting all my grievances in the backpack again!
The minute I am disturbed, I am in the habit of taking a big breath and saying I'm powerless. Not only over substances and behaviors, but over people, places, things and situations.
I am not the Buddha yet, but most days I can "Wear the World Like a Loose Garment". Quote from the 24 hour a day book. You are surrounded by Love, and have everything you need to do this thing! It's a wonderful life. nora ann.